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The key to writing these things is to not think but write. I stare at the screen and contemplate what I should write when the point is to write whatever comes into my head at that particular moment. Of course, the only thing in my head at the moment is how good a cup of coffee would taste right now.

I am seriously considering starting a journal of some sort. The idea is to buy a cheap notebook from Walmart and seriously write it all down each evening. I could be the Samuel Pepys of my time. Or maybe not. Keeping a diary or a journal is a serious daily commitment. I don't know if I can pull it off except I have been blogging very consistently for five years. The motivation to pull this off is the rush you get when you instantly publish something. I have realized over the years that most of what gets written is virtually ignored. This is why Wikileaks doesn't have a bigger impact. No one has the time to read through all of it.

If I do keep the journal, I think I will transcribe it to Google Docs and keep it in private mode. Then, I will print out a hard copy. Between the handwritten, virtual, and printed copies, it should last through the years. I wish I could say the same for the C-blog, but my faith in Google has been shaken considerably. They took down Ann Althouse's blog which she had kept for seven years. They claimed it was "spam." This is simply bullshit.

If my blog got nuked, I could get over it. I have had my whole life destroyed before, and I got over that. The one thing I have learned in life is that the greatest threat to me comes from other people. The result of this realization is that I have no friends and no family. The fewer people I have in my life the more stable I become. I have wondered why this is the case.

The cornerstone of being an individualist is a need to be self-reliant. You have to stand on your own two feet. If you want freedom, you must also take responsibility. People don't want responsibility. They want others to care for them. These others are quite eager to care for you as long as they get to rule you. When people rule over you, they feast on you and destroy you.

Most of the people in my life are on the level of acquaintance. I meet them on the job, in the marketplace, or online. I like this level of interaction because I am left alone. The moment I decide I don't like that person I don't have to interact with them anymore. At home, I am alone. The result is zero strife. There are no arguments. There is no drama. This is why I feel greater stability alone. I don't want to live with other people's shit.

People think I am lonely, but I am not. I always have things to do, and I find people to be distracting in this regard. Being alone gives me the time and the peace to create. I don't need other people.

I just got done watching a guy on Facebook tell about his troubles after moving in with some other folks in NH. I don't know all the details, but I could have told him that was how it was going to go down. Never ever lean on other people. They will completely fuck you.

This concept is known as self-reliance. This is what Emerson was talking about. It doesn't mean being a complete loner. It does mean being willing to no longer conform but to do your own thing.

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